What is the goal?

Getting married is not the goal.
It is CLEARLY a hope.
I do hope to get married one day.
I hope to have children.
I hope to be a missionary.

The goal is to follow Christ.
And through that being my focus I can follow Him in the goals that he has set before me.
I need to follow Him and do what he has called me to do right now.
I am serving God in my singleness.
That is something that has been on my heart and mind for several years.
Foolishly have I dated other guys and changed my plans for them when I should have been doing something else.
Christ is my passion and my focus.
When Christ is my passions, I can trust my passions.
I have a passion about the great commission and missions and people, God's children.
I hope to be a missionary. I believe that is where God has called me to be.
I do not know where or when.. but I know that is has begun now.
Right now my mission field is here.
As school in my classes and through my projects I can proclaim Christ in some way that He leads me to do a such. The way I speak and act will show, I hope will show Christ shining though me.
A goal that has come through this passion is to graduate from school in the next year.
I do not know what job I want exactly with this degree. To be a missionary in a foreign land is the idea. I hope to learn their culture, language, relationships, and what God is doing there with the people.
In the bible Paul was a tent maker as he did all his missions. With the degree I will receive, perhaps I will find my tent making job. And through that job I will be able to use the funds I earn for missions.

The goal is not to get married, not to have kids, or not to find a job.
They are hopes that I have placed at the foot of the Cross.
I am letting God orchestrate my love story, lead me to where he wants me to serve, and help me to follow him in whatever I do.

My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

So Be It.