Healing Begins.

[to bring a foundation to my thought process…
I have been hearing a few songs over and over again.
One being Follow You by Leeland and Brandon Heath
Another being Healing Begins Tenth Avenue North
And another being Lead Me by Sanctus real.
This blog or note is about Healing Begins]

[video to listen, not really to watch.]




Things in this world have broken my heart.
The way a parent was treating their child.
Family issues.
Earthquakes in Haiti. Chile. Other places.
Death.
Stories, reality, in the newspaper headlines and on the TV news.
Old friendships that have dissolved yet still plaguing my heart.
Current friendships facing some issues.
I may take things too personally.

The picture I had in my mind is that my heart was glass and many things of this world were slowly creating cracks in my heart. Then one day something just shattered my heart. It has been a build up of many things.

Healing begins once prayer starts.
That is what I learned.

Amidst these feelings in my heart it began with this instance:
My mind was racing that day at school and was stressed about projects.
I got to my car before going to work with some kiddos at Kids First.
I just fell into the drivers seat and just stopped.
I stopped and prayed.
I prayed that I would be able to take all these thoughts captive to Jesus.
That he would guide me though and that I can think about whatever
is noble, pure, true, and etc. This verse:
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right,
whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—
if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
Phil 4:8
I prayed.
Shortly, at the end of my prayer I thought of a song where is says,
"..feels like chaos but some how there is peace."
I know that peace I have is straight from Jesus and none other.

I turned my car on and the radio and headed to work.
As I began to listen to the song on the radio, this is what I heard:

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
And it's hard to surrender to what I can’t see
But I’m giving in to something heavenly.

That song that I thought about was playing at that moment.
And beyond there is peace...it is something heavenly.

That God up to something bigger than me…
Larger than life…something heavenly

Something heavenly.
Chaos but there is peace.

My Jesus moment.

That moment came by prayer. By letting go and letting God.

This was before the shattering of my heart.
That may have been the same week but I am not sure.

After that heart break, I knew that I needed to keep praying.
I also had the feeling in my heart to have another pray for me.
At church a Sunday morning I felt that I should go up to one of the prayer people and talk with them, but I didn't
However, that evening I did.
I went and told a girl, who was not much older than me, that I would like prayer.
Prayer for school, work, family, health,.. nothing too specific.
General life stress.
She began to pray.
She began to pray specifically for healing. Her hand was on my shoulder and she moved it over my heart as she prayed. She prayed for healing of my heart. That God would heal my heart and take away any pain that has been there.
I did not tell her that my heart has been breaking.
After she prayed, the pain in my heart had subsided.

These two instances show that prayer is powerful and God is so much more powerful.
Healing began.
And has continued.
I have seen and felt the reality of prayer and healing in my life.
God is doing something heavenly.

[I may add more later]